♥ its all about me & you.. against the world.. ♥

life has been smooth for me ever since our first.. and yes i couldn't deny that he is the best thing that ever happen to me.. but before i start with anything else, just to let you guys know that i will not write here if nothing bad happen to me.. recently, shits happen.. i swear i can't take it anymore.. haishhhh.. :(

it all started ever since he went for his fucking reservist.. i swear that was a fucking reservist ever.. from 17th July up till now, i can barely count with my fingers how many times we met.. after his 2 weeks in camp thingy, we still didn't have the chance to meet up.. slowly as time passes by, it gets worse.. i was given a cold treatment, he started to be rude to me, i was being ignored and we rarely contact each other.. maybe i can understand that he is working during the day now but that doesn't mean that he has to ignore me right? until at the very end of the day then i will just get an sms stating that he had just finished his work and is heading somewhere with the frens.. after that, silence again for the whole night.. this has been on going for a week and i have been really patient with him..

decided to ask him what is wrong with him or what have i done that made him changed.. all his answer was, his heart changed just like that for no reason.. and yes its fucking stupid.. been asking him if it was due to a third party or he have someone else.. the answer was NO.. but why the heck are you acting like this???! i don't see me doing anything wrong to you! i don't see me having any other affair outside! i don't see anything is wrong in this relationship.. the problem now is HIM!! kinda fuck up but i just have to accept this fucking stupid reason he gave me!! binget per aku!!! mcm suar!!

i tried every means and ways to make things better.. to work things out.. but it simply failed.. aku dah tak tahu ah ape nak buat lagi dgn kau..!! sumpah aku menyesal habes punye!! bulan puasa kau buat ni mcm kat aku!! memang takde hati & perasaan langsung.. i really have no mood for raya this year.. harapan aku hancur!.. ape yg kau dah janji dgn aku selama ini semua bagai kan angin yg lalu jer.. tak bermakna lagi..!! I REGRET FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU!! i know i shouldn't have!! arghhhh!! now im like killing myself..!! i donoe what to do!! aku dah lost!!

dear GOD, i really need you to show me whats best for me now.. why is this happening to me again.. is this just how my love life gonna be like until i donoe when?!??? i give up already la.. i swear i give up..!! sad but what can i say.. hari baik bulan baik, ni yg aku terima.. haishhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!